實習醫生的日子，只剩下三個月。
記得那時民哥說半年後見，覺得是很遙遠的事，
但半年，就這樣過去了，又再一次，回到東區醫院了。
回看上兩篇日記，好像現在每一水才寫一次xanga呢，變懶了。

聯合兒科的三個月，是很充實和高興的。
在東區骨科的時候，最不捨是一眾nursing staff。
在仁濟亦有相同感覺。
但這裏，我發現我最捨不得是一眾MO。

不知應從何說起，但他們給了我一個很家的感覺，
好像無論如何，也會有人在後挺著你。
有時候覺得，人夾人的緣份是可遇不可求的。
能一起渡過了三個月的歡笑日子，已是一種福份。

Where do we end? Where do we begin? Are we lost or must we loose to win? Are we free to choose the life we live?

Let it rain.

12月了﹐AL 也放完了。
AL 的第一天晚上使盡了唱 K 的動力﹐第二天再用盡了打 Wii 的心情
所以﹐之後的幾天都很寫意的放假。

週四回去了東區探望很掛念的大家﹐同時實踐了很想整東西吃的衝動。
不太相信已經離開了2個月﹐畢竟走在‘東區走廊’上還是那麼熟悉。
週五跟 Mandy 吃了午餐﹐跟 Henry 吃了晚餐﹐然後發現不應該再以這兩人組合去買衫。。。
因為有 synergistic effect。。。

29卷沒有空運貨﹐沒有寫東西的急切。
再次 regular 地去做 yoga ﹐有充足休息後果然能回復能力值﹐
星期六那天給光頭佬 backbend 到好像有點過份了﹐哈哈。
星期日晚 Cluster Mean 聚﹐馮寶小姐終於出席啦~
一開始覺得枱太大﹐很難傾計﹐但我們應該只是低估了我們的聲浪。。。

My life seems to be filled with last minute encounters and final moment acquaintances lately. Back when I met Joseph in May, it was his last week in the city. When I started to get acquainted with Henry some time in June, albeit having known him for like 10 months, he was about to switch jobs. Then there was that skater guy the few of us ushered Jennifer to go trip over, whose name I can't even remember but I do recall he was leaving in a few days.

Had my first conversation with a fellow yogi in Baldy's class named Shaw, whom I've seen for much longer than I remember but never really talked with, and it turns out Saturday morning's class was his last one before he returned to Shanghai. Went to Clayton Horton's Ashtanga 2 class this morning, just because I've heard good remarks about his teachings, and he said this week is his last in Hong Kong.

Do I have some sort of departure detector that throws me towards people who are leaving? Eh.

Getting addicted to the melody of  "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence" lately.

A beautiful and blinding morning, the world outside begins to breathe. See clouds arriving without warning, I need you here to shelter me. And I know that only time will tell us how to carry on without each other. So keep me awake to memorize you, give me more time to feel this way. We can't stay like this forever, but I can have you next to me today.

明天, 就是最後一天了.
為期三個月的東區骨科, 要結束了.
不捨是預期中的事.
其實, 這個星期以來, 已經無數次的告訴自己: "這可能是這水的最後一次了".
最後一次 33-hour full night call, 28-hour weekend call.
最後一次要做 knee tap, knee score.
最後一次要 supervise 打石膏, escort CT.
最後一次拉手, 劃 OT 腳.
最後一次幫阿輝打 block.
最後一次見某些姑娘.
所以都抱著珍惜的心情去做.

If I could make these moments endless, if I could stop the winds of change, if we just keep our eyes wide open, then everything would stay the same. And I know that only time will tell me how we'll carry on without each other. So keep me awake for every moment, give us more time to be this way. We can't stay like this forever, but I can have you next to me today.

然而, 時間總快得讓人招架不住.
原來 Eric 是 25 號 last day, 並非 26 號.
原來愛芳昨晚 night, 明天 O.
原來 Anna 今晚 night, 明天 sleep.
原來高醫生 on leave 至下週.
原來很多以為還會能在走前再見的人, 都不會再見了.

We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here right now with me. All my fears just fall away when you are all I see. We can't stay like this forever, but I have you here today.

明晚的 last day call, part 著了很好人的 Priscilla, 所以其實盡其量都是 half call.
已經不會再在 B9 睡了.
會懷念 Anothany 的糖水.
懷念彭 Sir 的 tea.
懷念要 "交稅" 給血姑英姐, 幫她儲大口仔.
懷念被人叫阿星, 阿芬, 志雲飯局, 還有近來的大師.
太多了, 要懷念的太多了.
原來, 能在失去之前及時珍惜,
還是會遺憾的.
但民哥說, 有遺憾才會掛念, 不是嗎?

And I will remember, I will remember, remember all the love we share today.

- "Awake" Josh Groban.

遺棄了這麼久的 xanga,  終於嘀起心肝翻新了一下.
東區骨科的實習, 這樣就過了三分二.
以悠閒的一水開始 intern 生涯,
壞處是頹得就頹, 尤其是工作上了手, 功課能快速清除之時;
好處是, 仍然能感覺到自己是和這個世界有連繫的,
仍然能去 yoga, 仍然能找九月先開工的 N 先生 hae,
仍然能任性地貼緊 Pokemon 的一切.

偶然覺得辛苦的時後會想找狂, 尤其是半夜剛躺下就收症,
還要是一些背痛了好幾星期, 但無原由地要凌晨兩點先到急症室的人.
但想到其他同伴的辛酸 rotation, 就會想:
天堂也叫苦, 地獄豈不要崩潰?

夏天, 就這樣過去了.
奧運結束了.
鄭妹妹和其他小朋友又開學了.
CU 的 webmail 和 ihome account 都不能再 access 了.
J 先生也離開日本到 Bali 去了.

經常會有隔日 call 的仁濟 rotation, 可以不要那麼快來嗎?
很喜歡很喜歡的 PY O&T 同事們, 能再相處久一點嗎?
未來走向的一切, 可以不要那麼快需要深思嗎?
近來好像學會逃避現實了.

近來愛上了聽 Corrinne May 的歌,
很安寧.

So here we stand, anchored in hope, letting the rain wash away every fear.
Stars in the sky twinkle and shine, I pray they won't disappear.
Coz I don't know where your journey goes, or how long it will take to unfold.
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark, I will be watching over every beat of your heart.

I wish that time could be replayed, I'd keep you here with me every day.
They say that love is letting go, I hope that you'll find your way.
Coz I don't know where your journey goes, or how long it will take to unfold.
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark, I know you're watching over every beat of my heart.

一個半月的最後假期, 就這樣過去了.
明天就開始 pre-intern 的生活, 七月一日起就正式上班了.

結果,
很多計劃中的東西沒有實行.
沒有回去中學,
沒有去重練駕駛,
沒有重拾 Pokemon 的工作,
沒有去見很多很多打算要見的人,
都只是匆匆一個電話就了事.

考試時所期待的一個故事, 落空了.
漫不經心的拾起標著 "有效日期將過" 的一章,
反而學會了, 體會了更多.
人生, 就總是給你預期外的結果吧.

鄭媽媽作了她業界裏驚天地泣鬼神的一件事.
商業秘密不好多說,
但我只想說, 我真的真的很佩服我媽媽.

Cluster Mean 都終於完完整整, 圓圓滿滿的結束醫科生生涯.
Graduation dinner 上我們很幸運的, 有了李教授,
所以, 很不幸地, 在 lucky draw 中, 是全場唯一一枱全枱無人中獎.
不過, 很喜歡我們的合照.
我們將有的 monthly Ventilation Meeting, 很期待呢!

今天終於看了 Sex And The City 電影,
很喜歡其中的這首 Auld Lang Syne,
所以, 用作總結人生的一章吧.